Wednesday, 20 February 2008

So, who am I really?

For the longest time I have been aware that there a number of 'me's inside; a princess that wants everything right now and it had better sparkle, a very cynical me, a vamp me that wants to hurt people and a mother figure who wants to cuddle everyone to name but a few. All of these mes kinda smoosh together in a fluid and ever changing manner to create my personality and moods.

I am becoming aware now that there are outside mes too and they all want a piece of the action.

In my late twenties everything was fantastic. I knew who I was and where I was going and my priorities were clear. Now I'm in my mid thirties; a mum, wife, teacher and I want to do so much but I just can't seem to find the time. Where are my priorities?

My friend Roses has been having a dilema of priorities, work for her son's future or immerse herself in her creativity. I am so proud of her for making those hard choices and figuring out what is important to her.

So what is important to me? My husband's career has to quite near the top, as he needs to finish his studies before we expand the family anymore (I guess that's another thing I want) and at the moment getting enough cash in to pay the bills is pretty damned important too.

OMG there is so much going on. This needs some more thought.

How do you decide what to prioritise?

1 comment:

Roses said...

Thank you honey, you make a fabulous cheerleader. I'm not sure how successful I've been at prioritising, I'm still a want cake and eat it kinda girl.

I do feel for you having to put off expanding your family, but as you say, your beloved needs to be in his dream before anything else can shift along.

More than that I cannot say. I think you're fab and the good things your working towards will be yours. I'm sure of it.